Unrelenting & steadfast you pursue us, with a blazing fire & passion in your eyes. We run away from your gentle embrace feeding ourself all sorts of crazy lies.. that our ways are better than your ways & that we know what's best. Our prideful & selfish ideas & games waltz us right into the depths of darkness, but when you call out to us, reach out to help us, we turn away so dead set on helping ourselves... though on the inside we're screaming out & dying for you to save us. How long will we CHOOSE to wallow in self-pity? How long will we cling to our past as the reason we're unable to move forward with our lives? Using it as a crutch to aid our low standards & lack of motivation, being the catalyst of our depression, bitterness & laziness. Sometimes we force God to allow us to fall on our faces that way we'll see that we're not the ones in charge & that we're not invincible. In those moments we might say "God! Why did you allow that to happen?! Do you not know how embarrassing that was?!". We have no problem placing blame on Him, but we remain silent when He points out the fact that He warned us not to take the steps which resulted in our fall.
We must stop trying to "psych" God out of seeing our true colors. Have we really forgotten that He created us & knows every fiber of who we are? He knows us better than we know ourselves. Do we really think that any amount of forced smiles, fake acting & master manipulating is going to trick God into believing we've got everything figured out & that we're perfect? Notice that in the word "manipulating" is the word "man"... We can easily fool those on earth who have limited knowledge, but we are unable to fool the one who breathed the very existence of life into being..the all powerful & all knowing one.
No matter how thick & high our walls are that we keep up in order to remain "pain free" & unscathed... it will not help. God loves us. He wants to rips those walls apart & create something even more beautiful & infallible. He wants to create us to be clean & new & whole. No matter what we've done or where we've been, God loves us & wants us (His beloved children) to come back into His arms... back where we belong. How long will we allow pride, anger, past failures & regrets to keep us from being truly happy? How long will we keep telling ourselves that we do not deserve His precious gift to us when it's already ours?.. He's already given it to us. We must stop viewing ourselves as insignificant & unworthy, but as mighty heirs!
This has been on my mind a lot over the last few days & I want you to know that, if you're reading this.. it's for a reason. There is something inside of you that can be changed & cleansed. Allow God to touch you, heal you & restore you. He loves you & is not out to mock, tease or humiliate you.. but to take you into His loving arms & show you what love really means. The definition of love is calling out YOUR name... answer His call. Be blessed & be filled. Let Him show you the amazing gift of His... Redeeming Love.
